Embracing Yo' Bad Self
"Our deepest fear is not that we’re inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we’re powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We’re all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we’re liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others". – Marianne Williamson
Growing up I was surrounded by fierce, strong minded women. I wasn’t much different from them and sometimes that scared me. I felt that people often perceived this way of being as too aggressive or confrontational. People get intimidated and it can come across as a polarizing personality. I worried that people would judge me or not take the time to get to know me.
Somewhere along the way I decided it was better to only show bits of myself at a time. I figured the best way to get people to know me was to be nice. I hid my power and avoided controversy at all costs. Ultimately, I dimmed my own light to protect myself from being criticized or turning people off from getting to know me.
Yoga has helped me realize that strong women put themselves out there and don’t wait to be validated by other’s opinions. Being strong doesn’t mean a woman is a b*tch, wild, or bossy. It means we’re more assertive, confident, and a go-getter. It means we’re willing to do what it takes to follow our dreams and stand up for ourselves if the situation calls for it. It also means that we strive to help uplift those around us. Above all, it means that we relish our strengths and accept our weaknesses and consider self-growth an everyday endeavor.
As my yoga teacher @albinka007 would say, “Tits up!” Stand up tall and lift your head up high. Now go pursue whatever sets your soul on FIRE!